It was the first time I killed a man. I still remember my heart racing when I found him in that alley, shaking down some poor kid for his money. My hands shook so bad, I had to clench them into fists and put them in my jacket pocket. Vomit threatened to explode from inside me, but I managed to push it back.
I let out a slow breath and stepped into the light, allowing my shoes to scrap the asphalt to get his attention. He stared at me in disbelief for a moment before finally piping up, “You got a problem?”
I frowned, my teeth clenched together in barely contained rage. “Yeah, I have a problem.” I returned as I began to approach the two men, “Y’see, every night I lay in bed and I listen to people fighting and robbing and killing each other on my street. Then I roll over and I go back to sleep.”
The thug shoved the kid to the said, threatening to cut him if he doesn’t get out of here, before turning his attention back to me. “The hell are you talking about?” He demanded, coming towards me in a threatening manner. Nervous energy crackled up my spine, but I tightened my fists.
“It wasn’t my problem, I thought to myself, it’s not my job.” I continued on, ignoring his question. “Every night, I ignored the sirens that passed and the screams for help. It wasn’t worth getting into trouble for.”
As I got closer, the would-be mugger got nervous and pulled out his knife. The polished metal gleamed in the light, making it look far more menacing than it was. I almost stopped when I said it, but I forced my feet to keep moving. “Yo, stupid. Come any closer and I will cut you.”
I shook my head, “You did. Or don’t you remember. Has there been so many victims, so many bodies, that you can’t even remember anymore?” My smile is humorless as I regard him for a moment, still coming closer. “It was a year ago. A guy and his girl coming home. You were standing in this alley, watching and waiting for your chance.”
“The hell are you talking about?” He demanded, pointing the knife at me.
“Murder, my friend. You took our phones and our money, but that still wasn’t good enough.” I answer him, “You took your big knife there, and cut her throat in front of me.”
His brow creased for a moment then a look a clarity crossed his face, “You think I’m going to remember cutting up some broad? That’s like asking me what I had to eat last month. So what? This about revenge or something?”
I let out a sharp laugh, more to release the tension building up inside me than anything else. “Revenge?” I ask, incredulously, “Revenge? No no. This is something more than revenge. You see, you taught me a valuable lesson that night. I’m not going to just sit back and watch as the world goes to hell around me.”
“You think you can stop me? Little punk like you?” The thug chuckled, but I could see he was getting nervous. I don’t imagine too many people were so calm and forward when a knife was introduced to the party. He was backing away, but I was moving faster and closing the space between us.
“That’s the plan.” I replied, almost on him.
“Hmph. Good luck with that.” He retorts, thrusting out with his blade. I grunt as it stabs through my gut and I can feel the sharp edge slice through my flesh and muscles. Primal instincts kick in and I push away from him, pulling the knife free. The thug laughs darkly as I stagger back, pressing my hand against the flowing wound. “That’s what you get when you get in my face, freak.” The thug warns me, his confidence back.
I let out a weak laugh, “Yeah. About that.” Before his unbelieving eyes, I straighten up. Through the torn shirt and jacket, a black liquid seeps from the wound in my stomach. “You did a better job the first time.”
I move faster than he can register, knocking the knife from his hand with a sweep of my arm, and I have him by the throat. He let’s out a surprised strangled cry as my fingers dig mercilessly into his neck. “You still don’t remember, huh? Stabbing me and leaving me to die in that alley next to my girlfriends cooling corpse? We’re just another notch on your belt?” The killer just made a gurgling sound as his eyes began popping out from his sockets. “Well, maybe this will refresh your memory.”
Footsteps from the alley grabbed his attention and I shifted to the side so he could see the men and women coming out of the darkness. Easily a dozen of them, each carrying a look of rage and disgust on their faces. And hunger. The same hunger that gnawed away inside of me. I was afraid that I would give in to it before I got to say my piece. Luckily I was almost done and could let it take control in a moment.
“We’re taking the streets back from the scum,” I told him. “Starting with you.”
I spin sharply and bodily throw him towards the crowd. He stumbles twice before colliding with Laura, my love in life and in death, who drags him to the ground. Others join in, tearing into him. I stop and I listen the his screams, begging for help, and I look around. No lights turn on and no one comes running. I allow myself a smile before surrendering to the burning need inside of me and join in with my fellow undead.
He was my first kill, but as long as wicked men walk this earth, he would not be the last.